Lessons Learned

My mind is so fucked up lately. But you know what? I think I already get used to it. I feel better, even though it still hurts sometimes especially when I wake up. I feel this hole on my heart, it used to belong to someone. Now it's gone but it's healing. There are a lot of things that I learnt.

♡ Never expect anything

when you stop expecting, you'll feel peace. We don't expect anything in return. We love, we care, we help without any expectation. We do it 100% purely because we want to, not because we want to be loved in return.

♡ Love yourself

When we love ourselves, we are unbeatable. We won't be broken-hearted. Because when you love yourself, we respect ourselves. We let people to love us more by doing this. We won't let anybody break our precious heart (hahaha)

♡ There are things that are not meant to happen

"Hardwork never betrays." 
Yea, we all know that. But there are things, no matter how hard you try, no matter how much blood you lose, it won't happen. It just will not happen. And we will never know why. It's what we call destiny. Accept it and let it go for your own sake. Sad but true T.T

♡ Everything happens for a reason

Little did I know that what happened is going to change my life completely. I become really close to my mom, my grandma, my family and my friends. If this didn't happen, I would still become the old Megga who never really see the value in family and friends. Now this is what I call "everything happens for a reason". I thank 'you' for that and I just hope I can stop kicking my blanket at night when I remember the stupid and silly things I've done to 'you'.


Now I tell myself to get over it and start a new fresh. And all I can do is literally be in a completely new place so I won't have to remember every single thing HAHAHA what a coward but hey I think it might work, or at least I hope! Amen, cya!